Am i really like him or not?

my husband is big time into deadliest catch on tv discovery and he was watching the old seasons today and he told me that im like the female version of phil harris. he said the capt used to smoke like 8 or 9 packs per day and he was always high stress. it seems like im always stressed out and i can easily do 4 or 5 packs per day and normally like a 1/2 of 1 pack during the night when i wake up to smoke. they keep me clam so i dont freak out and start breaking stuff and pushing people so i need them. am i really like him???????